No no, I'm not turning over a new leaf,
or moving to another country,
or even moving to another apartment complex,
But Life has made some changes.

6 weeks ago to the day,
My Dad died.
Myyy Dad, is dead.
and everyday I miss him,
and everyday I just want to talk to him,
To see him,
to hear him sing if I were a rich man,
and shake his upper body and stomp around in the kitchen,
Like they do in the movie "Fiddler On The Roof"
Alas, all the wishing and hoping, and pinching myself to wake up,
has done no good.
6 weeks later and the only thing that has changed,
is how sad I've gotten.

Yesterday in my history class,
we were watching a movie and the girl went to talk to her dad,
I was choking back tears,
and then she said, Papi, I'm so sorry
(It was a movie about chicanos)
And I lost it,
I had to leave.
later that day,
My eyes hurt from crying so hard.

I know I've been on and off for the last few years in this website,
but I have a connection with a few of you
and I am still not writing.

But life has gone on,
I'm almost done with my first year in college,
I have a new job,
and I'm trying to still have fun.

Just an update.
Hopefully talk to you soon.